Now That You Have Left
I did not know in my eager heat for you
that there was pain in every touch
Not like some kind of moral levy
that would be laid upon my head
But in the body of being was a truth
wonderful as a childs fascination
for a glittering object
Terrible as the somber gathering by a fresh grave
And now that you have left
I see all my touches were gathered
My shining instants assembled
And on a burning plate comes back to me
The full course of my desire
“If the impulse to Realization is full, it dominates our existence.
Even in that case we may have all sorts of habits we indulge.
At the same time, however, we are capable of seeing the whole picture of life.
We are able totally to feel the conditions of existence as they arise.
Thus, even in the moment of fulfilling some desire,
we do not merely have the emotion of pleasure
and the pleasure associated with fulfilling that desire.
Rather, we have a much larger intention that acknowledges the total picture of existence,
thus, in the same moment that we are mechanically fulfilling an impulse,
we feel sorrow in association with the objects of desire,
an acknowledgement of brevity and of the fact of things passing, the fact of death.
The impulse to Realization is profound when we have this more total emotion.
It is a greater emotion than the superficial one
that is commonly associated with the fulfillment of desire.
Therefore, even the fulfillment of desires does not satisfy
the thirst, the hunger, the craving
for ultimate Realization, Peace, Freedom and Happiness.”
- Adida Samraj