Manikarnika Ghat in Benaras
Now, for another world altogether.
BENARAS is the ‘Ras’ (taste or essence) of 'Bena' (all things mixed together). Benaras, Kasi (The City of Light), Avimukta (Never Abandoned), or what is now called Varanasi (between the Varuna and the Assi Rivers) is the oldest, still living city in the world. It was a fabulously rich, educated, cultured and flourishing city when what we know as civilization in the West was just being born.
It is called the ancient city, the eternal city, ‘Older than history, older than tradition, older even than legend and looks twice as old than all of them put together’, as Mark Twain said. I would add, that Benaras has the highest density of myth, legend and story of any city that I have ever been in. One is walking in and on an ancient history that is still living, flourishing and growing. Someone once said that a city is not, fundamentally, a geography or a history, neither a maze of streets nor a rational plan of settlement- a city is a myth and a story made manifest, and I have never felt that more than in Benaras.
We arrived in the early evening and found a wonderful place to stay overlooking the Ganges, down a main alleyway to Assi Ghat. Beggars lined the streets, calling out to us, hands held up and out as we walked to the ghats.
There were small shops lining the alley. There were people selling Neem sticks for your teeth, (5rupees).
Neem sticks are the Indian toothbrush. When you purchase one, he smashes it on the stone before him with the hammer splaying out the fibers.Then people take them down to the Ganges and brush their teeth. Neem is sometimes called the 'village pharmacy' and is used for many aspects of health and healing throughout India
There were the ever persistent touts that fill the ghats and streets of Benaras, selling everything you can think of and offering to get for you, 'No problem', even what you cannot think of. There were spiritual bookstores and exotic performers of bhajan music, singing the names of Shiva or Ram.
There were sadhus with their orange robes and piled jatas of hair,
There were Ma’s and their children,
some begging and living out in the open on a table under a tarp.
After I checked into the hotel, had a shower and 5-minute rest, Antoine came and got me to go out. He was hungry and we soon found a small restaurant and had a wonderful Indian meal. Then we walked down to the ghats, the miles long stone bathing steps that line the Ganges in Benaras.
Assi ghat, where we were staying, is the southernmost of all of the ghats. It is built where the Assi river flows into the Ganges. After that, the banks of the Ganges are mud lined and not built up with steps or buildings.
There is something different about this city, about the feeling here. I told Antoine that I could stay here for a long time…it is true. I feel I would love to write here- it is archetypically intoxicating.
You never see this quality in America, the closest thing to it are some neighborhoods in New York City, but, this is different. I said to Antoine, 'Compared to this, the wild west was a Sunday church picnic' and I really meant it.
Even in India, one does not get this particular 'rasa' or taste in a city. It seems a place differently and uniquely blessed. One could consider Benaras as the 'Rome' of India. Thousands of years ago it was mentioned in the Mahabharata as Kasi and the king of Kasi fought in the great battle of Kurukshetra. Bhisma abducted the three daughters of the the King of Kasi, Amba, Ambika and Ambalika for Vichtravirya, the son of Santanu and Satyavati. Kasi was mentioned in the Ramayana in the time of Lord Rama. More recently, Buddha came here. Sankara, Ramananda,Trailinga Swami, Kabir, Guru Nanak, Tulsidas, Kinnaram, Ananda Mayi Ma, Adida Samraj and many, many more. It has a still living history that goes back deeper into time more than any other city in the world.
Benaras was a city known for the beauty and arts of its courtesans. It was, and to a lesser extent still is, the highly treasured city of philosophers, Sanskrit scholars, musicians, dancers and poets. In some Hindu weddings there is a ritual in which the groom threatens to 'Go to Kasi', become a scholar and study the Vedas. He is ritually peruaded to give up those plans by gifts and praise. Amongst the Hindus, 'Going to Kasi', still means going to the source of wisdom.
It used to be called 'Shivas Forest of Bliss'. It was filled with forest ashrams set beside flowing streams of clear water. Even now, when you see what remains of the city, or look at the city in the films of Satyajit Ray from the 50's and 60's, you see what was once a very beautiful and sacred city. For thousands of years it was thought of as the most holy place on earth. To most Hindus, it is still thought of that way.
That night, after dinner, we began to walk along the Ganges. We headed north, upriver along the ghats. Ganga Ma (Mother Ganges), is large and slow moving here.
Throughout India, the Ganges is the presence, focus and source of life, just like a Mother.
In India, this Divine Mother is venerated as a God:
“The water of the Ganges is regarded as an elixir. Taken daily it confers immortality.
A bath in it, purifies one of all sin. Applied to various parts of the body while performing a penance,
by standing in the river on one leg from one new moon to the next,
it can cure diseases of those parts and organs.
Voluntary death by drowning in the sacred stream assures one a place in paradise.
Even consigning the bones and ashes of a deceased person to the river
ensures his/her entry into bliss.
The Puranas relate how a bone of a dead dog, while being carried over the Ganges by a crow,
was accidentally dropped into the holy waters,
as a result of which, the dog was instantly translated into heaven.”
-Benjamin Walker, Hindu Tales
In Benaras, all things run down to the Ganges. The stone steps of the Ghats were built over a long period of time going back before early Medieval times. They all run down to the Ganges.
As you look up the river, along the ghats, they all run into each other without a break for as far as the eye can see. The steps go up or down from one to another particular ghat. Each Ghat has its own particular quality, many quite striking in grandeur and beauty, while others are more subdued. They all have their history.
Chet Singh Ghat
After walking past one or two ghats, one of them having some young Indians playing western rock music on a boom box, we heard a boatman calling out to us to hire him and we did. He brought the boat up to the muddy shore below the steps filled with trash and we stepped on board.
It was wonderful. As we began to go out onto the Ganges, I felt that I had now, begun to enter Benaras.
It was peaceful and quiet with the bright lights that now line the ghats shining out towards the river, like streetlights in the distance. The high walls of the various ghats, like large castles, or ancient sentinels, rose up from the Ganges.
Here and there, I could hear the music of bhajans and chanting coming out from the innumerable small porches and balconies and rooms that looked out over the river.
Here and there, I could hear a dog barking or see an occasional firework go off in the sky. It was Divali (a sort of Indian New Year) tomorrow and everywhere people were practicing. Unlike in America, the fireworks go off all day and night for several days.
Antoine on boat
In the boat, Antoine asked me if this was what I expected of Benaras and I said ‘No’, meaning less of the lights and the occasional hotel that now fronted the river and the various stores that had come right down onto the ghats. After a short discussion of where would be best to go, we decided to head for the main burning ghat or Smashan of Benaras- Manikarnika Ghat.
One of the most interesting things about Marnikarnika Ghat, and the other burning Ghat of Benaras- Harischandra Ghat, is that unlike the cremation grounds in the rest of India, which are considered impure and polluted and typically located outside of the city, here, the cremation grounds are set in the very heart of the city. This tells us much about the special nature of Benaras and the special significance given to cremation here.
In Benaras, cremation is considered to be liberation; it was the boon given to Vishnu, from Shiva, that all beings who die here would be liberated. This forms an essential part of the foundation of the fundamental myth of Benaras. It shows itself in the central location of the burning ghats to the city- they are considered to be places of liberation and are thus not considered impure or polluted.
It is so obvious and clear in India, especially here in Benaras, how story is what fills in, fills up, completes, points out, makes, creates, reveals and even makes hidden, the world and every bit of our experience. As the famous Sanskrit grammarian Bhartrahari once said, “Unless we have a word for something, that something does not exist for us” It is the same with story- which is a collection of words. Unless you have a story for something, that something does not show itself to you. Unless you know the myth, one place is like any other place, and Benaras, as I have proposed before, has more myth and story per square inch than any other place in the world.
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I could see the many fires of Manikarnika Ghat, burning off in the distance, reflecting onto the still water of the Ganges as we slipped slowly and quietly toward it.
As we approached, I could feel the weight of something real and heavy, immovable and ancient, It was as if I could actually 'sense' something eternal. There were six or seven fires burning, and the ghats were covered with people.
After the fires, the first thing I noticed were men were carrying logs on their heads, from the boats which crowded up against the base of where the fires burned. The boats were covered and piled high with logs. Dressed in dirty T-shirts and lungis, they carried 2 or 3 logs at a time, up past the bodies, laid out on the steps on green bamboo palanquins. This went on continuously every day that I was there.
Men carrying logs to stack above the cremation grounds for the burning pyres
The bodies intended for cremation had been carried down a narrow twisting maze through the close-set alleys (sanskrit- ghallis) of shops, houses and stores, by their families or relations. People come from all over India to be cremated in Benaras and to have their ashes scattered on the Ganges here.
Descending the final steps to Manikarnika ghat. The chanting pall bearers, have just come out from the close walled alleys above.
After the bodies are dipped in the Ganges for one last time, they are placed on the steps by the river, feet down, in front of strangers and groups of people who have come to witness the burning.
Dipping the body in the Ganges giving the corpse one last bath in the sacred waters.
The many people who are there, have come for a variety of reasons. Many have obligations to those who were about to be cremated. They had loved and lived with those who were now dead. Some had simply been around or known them, or, like many, have come to be confronted with their own inevitable death and eventual burning and found solace and comfort in that fact and thus in reality itself- a chance denied to us in the West, where the face of death is kept hidden, even in the news.
The large, high and many storied buildings that rose up above the ghats seemed ancient, covered with a brownish black haze of hundreds of years of soot and ash from a 24hour a day, seven days a week, every day of the year constant burning of the dead. They were heavy with all the death they had witnessed; Everything was heavy with weight and solemnity.
Just beside the main ghat, there was a huge ornately framed, all stone, archway, that was choked with crumbled rock and assorted trash through which a small stream of water spilled down and onto the stone rocks of the lowermost ghats where the fires burned. I could hear the water running over the wall and falling onto the stone below as we approached the cremation site. I could hear the fires burning and crackling. I could hear logs shifting on the fire and the chanting of some priests. Everywhere I stepped it was completely dirty and usually wet. There was not a single clean area to be found.
At the foot of Manikarnika where the bodies are given their last bath in the Ganges. The dog you see in the left hand side of the picture is chewing on a human bone that he had gone out into the Ganges to retrieve. Dogs are considered to be an animal vehicle/companion of Shiva ( like Nandi the Bull) and are accepted at the burning ghat.
One of the things I noticed in Benaras, is that cleanliness, as we conceive the term in the West, is not associated with holiness or even with a life worth living or a value worth striving for. Everywhere it is dirty. The holy men are dirty. Out in front of the nicest hotels there are beggars and they are dirty. They are not driven off or kept away like in America, where we keep up our own version of antiseptic ‘cleanliness’. Our hospitals are kept white and washed and sterile as if it is germs alone that cause disease. I was in a very small private hospital in India for several days and according to the germ theory of disease we have in the West, the Indian people should be the sickest of any on earth, but, they are not. Even the small hospital I was in would be considered 'dirty' by Western standards. But, the Hindus do have an extremely exacting idea and practice of purity, sacredness and ritual. But this does not necessarily jive with what we in the west would call ‘cleanliness’.
There is cow dung and buffalo dung and dog shit and human shit and the streets are dirty and you see men urinating and people shitting everywhere and there is the recognizable smell of shit and urine and there is exhaust from diesel trucks and smoke from fires and the streets are dirty with trash and more shit and when you go to get a haircut you sit on a flat stone on the ground and the barber sits on a flat stone in front of you beside a dirty street with a pile of moist cow dung a few feet away and the whole place is buzzing with flies
Street Barbers. They cut your hair, trim you beard and sideburns with a straight razor,
and the curb of the street you are sitting on is one which goes down to the ghat which is on the river which is the holiest in India and is itself polluted with fecal matter from the thirty streams of untreated sewage that constantly flow into it in Benaras alone and in which people come to bathe and to brush their teeth every morning and the milkmen come to wash their buckets daily.
Milkmen washing their buckets in the Ganges
While they wash their buckets, the occasional dead body or only partially burned corpse sometimes floats by and just a little ways upstream is the place where the ashes of burned bodies and some of them only partially, are daily poured into the river.
Milkmen with their buckets filled with milk. The green grasses are to keep the milk fresh
India is not 'clean'.
I had to watch where I put my foot, as all over the place were piles of cow dung, fine debris and not so fine debris. Everything was dirty, blackened and browned, everywhere was trash. But, there was a strange sort of perfection and even orderliness or sanctification to it all as well. Like a forest where the leaves and dead branches and rocks and death of so much living matter shows itself as beauty, so it was here.
The Ganges was filled with garlands of flowers, thousands of plastic bags and trash at the base of the burning area.
Trash floating on the Ganges
Here, I could imagine, as Ramakrishna saw- Shiva, the great God of Death and Life standing above the burning ghats whispering in the ears of the dead and receiving the souls of the departed. I found it absolutely beautiful and totally serene. It was as if something real, something natural was happening here and always had. This was Benaras; a city renowned for eternal life and death and this was the very heart of that city.
The stone on the right is a Satee stone. It indicates that a woman committed satee or self-immolation at this spot.
We are so starved in the West for something real. What does that mean? Perhaps, what is ‘real’ refers to what man cannot control, what man cannot prevent or pervert. It certainly includes a clear encounter with all of life including the ritual and ceremony of the most ancient mystery that man encounters- death.
Here in Benaras, was the India that I had dreamed of and knew I had dreamed it, only when I saw it. Although this vision was small and only a little sliver of what once was a whole culture, a whole city, a whole country or time, it is still here and still alive. When you walk through a doorway, it can be small and yet open out to another room that is wide and vast as a world. So it was for me with Manikarnika Ghat in Benaras.
In the light and sensed heat of the burning fires we paid our boatman and walked to the burning ghat. The whole place seemed charged with intensity and serenity at the same time. There were groups of people all over the ghat at higher and lower levels. I later discovered that they were mainly the relatives of the departed. It was all men, there were no women present, except amongst a few western white people or ‘Fairangis' as Antoine called them, sitting on the uppermost stairs looking on.
Higher up the stairs of the ghats were more logs stacked 20-30 feet high, sometimes in unstable looking piles.
There were large, old wooden boats there, piled high and wide with wood, four foot long, logs for the burning.
Cows, goats, buffalo and dogs roamed the area.
There were men wearing only dhotis and dirty t-shirts attending to the fires, carrying the wood off the boats and building the pyres.
It was busy and awesome and peaceful and passionate and all at the same time.
It was Benaras- the taste of all things mixed together.
I walked up to the higher steps, above the press of people and watched, feeling as much as I was watching. There was so much going on, and, as I now know, most of it was passing me by. I know that now, by the grace of Ram, the God and the man named after him who walked up to me on the steps and began immediately to tell me what was happening below. In India, there are many people, who will approach a westerner, for a variety of reasons, some of them, at least in the cities, are simply trying to scam you and to get money from you. I suspected this small man, short and wiry but with a kind face and very good English, to be one of them.
He immediately, without any introduction, started to tell me what was going on below on the Ghat.
“They are from Calcutta, they have brought the body only today for burning” He spoke of who was who and where a group bearing a palanquin came from. “You hear how when they bring the bodies down the steps from above they are chanting 'Sub ki Yahe Gate Hai!' and the group answers back with the same call, 'Rama Nama Satya Hai!'
The place where the narrow alleys stop and the steps descend to Manikarnika and the Ganges
"This means "This is the fate of all" and "Rama (the incarnation of God) is the name of Truth. Indeed I did make out this call and response, again and again and again as they had threaded their way down the narrow alleys and past the businesses and stalls that front directly upon the cobble stoned way of the ancient paths of Benaras.
“For thousands of years they have come this way. All day and night, every day and night.” And sure enough, as if on cue, here came a group of mourners, passing through a final arch at the river end of the alleys, out onto the top steps of the ghat, bearing the corpse of their departed with them on bamboo poles, wrapped in brightly colored cloth and adorned with flowers. The face of the deceased was covered with a white shroud underneath the ochre coverlet. You could see the outlines of his body clearly and the man leading the procession and the chanting was topless, dressed in a white dhoti and with a shaven head. “He is the eldest son” Ram pointed out, “It is he who shaves his head and who leads the chant and performs the karmas that need to be done.
The eldest son has lit the bundle of straw at the sacred fire overlooking the cremation grounds and now is carrying it down to the body to set it afire.Not only the sanctitiy of Manikarnika but also the sacred fire gives great meaning to cremation here
The eldest son walks three times clockwise around the body before setting the pyre alight
This man (again the oldest son) is carrying the Jaganasthi or hip girdle which has not burned completely between two sticks of bamboo. He will throw the bones into the Ganges. While I was there, on many a day, a dog would swim out into the river to retrieve the bone and bring it back to shore to chew on it. This was still considered to be auspicious as the dog was seen as the companion of Lord Shiva.
"There are no women here. This is a place of karma, not of emotion. Women cry and their crying may hold the soul to them and cause sickness to them, or to this world and be bad for the soul, so that it cannot leave. Men cry, but they do so internally, they do not show it. This is a place of karma, there are actions that need to be done and men are the ones that do it.”
Body lying on the steps awaiting an available pyre
Ram continued, “See how they take the bamboo stretchers down to the Ganges and dip the corpse in the water of the river.
Then they bring it out and lay it with feet pointing downwards on the lowest steps, right next to the river.
Dipping the body in the Ganges / Splashing water in the mouth of deceased for a last blessed taste of the Ganges
Laying the bodies on the steps after being bathed in the Ganges
Then the eldest son, barefoot, wades into the river and brings in his cupped hands, the Ganga water which he then pours into the mouth of the deceased.” I had not noticed all of this and was thankful for what this man was bringing to my attention. It was, indeed, all going on as he pointed out. I began to think that this man was a guide of some sort who worked the ghats and told tourists the story of what was occurring. I had no idea how true this was or in what way it was true. I did not know the story, but, we will come to this.
“Then they pour the Ganges water directly into the mouth of the deceased, taking off the outer shroud. They repeat this three times. Then the corpse is carried to where a pyre has been prepared of banyan wood, unless you happen to be very rich where the wood used is sandalwood.
Laying the body on the pyre
Notice how so many bodies are burning”, said Ram. “Have you ever burned your hair if you cut off some of it? Have you ever noticed how bad that smells? Have you noticed that there is no bad smell?" It was true, I agreed, and began to wonder at the man who had so much to say, and such an interesting story to tell. I had not noticed any bad smell of flesh being burnt. “This is because of the Banyan tree logs", Ram said. "They work in such a way as to make null the smell.”
He went on, “Sandalwood logs cost very much. It only costs rs300($9) for enough Banyan wood to burn a body. Sandalwood is only affordable by the very rich. I help out at the ghat where widows, because of the blessings of Kasi(Benaras), and the promise of liberation, come to die. They live there until they die. I take care of them."
He pointed up to where a large brown black building rose above the burning ghat.
Antoine had told me earlier of such a thing. I was also familiar from reading with the tradition of widows who come to Benaras to die. Indeed, many people, (Kasivadins- People who abide in Kasi) once they arrived in the sacred city, never left it for any reason, as they might lose the blessed opportunity to die here and be liberated.
Preparing to burn the body on a pyre
Ram had slipped this last mention about the widows into our considerations without pausing. At this point I put my fingers to my lips seeking to make him stop his discourse for a while. There was so much going on that was so strange and wonderful and I wanted to observe it in silence for a while. Ram smiled and acceded to my request. I told him, “This is my first time here and I want to take it all in without having to pay attention to your story for a bit.” After about five minutes, I stepped down to a lower step, so that my head would be closer to his, and Ram, like it was only a moments pause, began to talk again.
“There are two burning ghats in Benaras. One, the Harischandra Ghat is the less used”.
“This is because Harischandra belongs to the Raja or King of Benaras,
Manikarnika belongs to Shiva”.
Dhuni fire and Shaivite Tridents in the small temple room underneath Manikarnika
View from above Manikarnika
View of the area in back of Manikarnika Ghat
I later discovered two stories (There are many more) of how Manikarnika Ghat received its name and special blessing. The popular version of the story is that Shiva and Parvati were sitting by a tank or well there, when an earring of Parvati fell into the well. (A Jewel is known as a ‘Mani’ and ‘Karnika’ is well).
There is another version of the story from the ‘Kasi Khanda’, a mythic story of the city of Benaras (Kasi). In this story, the well was dug by the God-Vishnu with his own discus and was then filled with his own perspiration when he began to practice tapas or asceticism nearby. While Vishnu was involved in this tapas, the God Shiva arrived. Looking into the well, Shiva beheld the brilliance of a hundred million suns and became filled with adoration and praise for Vishnu and offered to him any gift he would desire. Vishnu, greatly pleased, requested Shiva to always dwell with him at this place. Shiva was so thrilled at this request that he shook violently with pleasure and an earring of his- the Manikarnika, fell into the well.
Vishnu also received a boon from Shiva that this place, Kasi/Manikarnika, would be a site that would bestow Mukti or liberation on all things and beings that die here. Furthermore, Shiva proclaimed this well the foremost and most effective of all the sites of pilgrimage on earth. It is by this well that the Manikarnika Ghat is built and it is for this reason, it is the most holy and sought after site of cremation in all of India.
(Below is a picture of the Manikarnika Well or Kund. It is situated behind and slightly down river of the Manikarnika Burning ghat. As I found in many extremely venerated spots in Benaras, this sacred spot was very dirty and in a state of disrepair. I was told there are temples that are under the mud here)
"Look at the man down in the water in front of the ghat", said Ram. "He is looking for gold from the teeth of those who were cremated. He is feeling with his feet. He is an educated man. You should talk to him."
Looking down at the area where Ram had gestured, just off the last steps of the ghats, where the bodies were laid out and the final ashes of those who had been burned were often poured out, was indeed a man, well built and healthy with a pan in his hand, feeling the sandy bottom of the river with his feet.
“Look at the when the eldest son takes an earthenware pot and goes down to the river where he fills it up and then walks back to the corpse.
Facing the river, standing at the feet of the corpse he then throws the pot, filled with water, over his shoulder. It shatters and breaks on the last of the burning pyre and then he walks quickly away, without looking back. They are done with their relationship to the body. When the fire cools, the soul is at peace”, Ram said. “Then the whole family then follows him up the steps and they walk away without looking back”.
At this point, the power went out all over town. This happens almost daily in India, but, this could not have been a more opportune moment. The scene became even more ancient and lit only by fire, like all of the ancient world at night, this wonderful evening continued.
We had gone down to the lowermost steps of the ghat, right beside one of the burning bodies. The wood was piled almost four feet high and when lit, it made a strong and hot fire. At one point, Ram gestured forcefully to one of the men who were tending the fire of the burning, to bring something. A plastic bag was brought to him and Ram talking in Hindi, instructed the man to do something. The bag was then opened and poured out on the corpse. “It is sandalwood, it will make the body burn brightly” said Ram.
At this point, I realized that Ram had a peculiar role on the burning ghats. “Who are you? I asked. What do you do here?”
I have worked here at this ghat for all my life. I also work at the house where widows wait to die.” He pointed up and over to a balcony with a dark facade looming over the smashan. I was overcome, all of a sudden with a desire to give something to this simple man. ‘What can I give you?’ I asked him. “Oh’ if you just give money to these widows, I will be happy, that is enough. Come, see them for yourself”, he said, and we began to walk up the steps from the burning area.
We ascended through a flat area, just above where the fires were, where there were huge piles of logs, stacked 20 feet high and always water and filth; even the dirt seemed to have been there for eternity. We walked around an ancient temple and then up a stairwell reeking of urine and very dark. Everything we walked on and through was stone, brownish black and covered with a particular soot and dirt that seemed to be unique to this area. When I later looked at the Manikarnika Ghat area during the day, there really did appear to be a different and soot stained 'glow' to the whole area.
We arrived in a large, rather dark, completely unfurnished room, without a stick of furniture. It was a grand, always-open balcony to the smashan below. “Here are the widows I spoke of” he said. There, crouched and squatting or sitting on the ground were many older women, obviously poor and dirty, all bringing their hands up to me in ‘Namaste’. Ram stepped back and the scene played out like an Academy award winning, poignant touching drama upon my western influenced sentiments. I was standing at a portico looking out on the ancient Ganges. I was standing at a place where they had been burning bodies continuously for thousands of years. Since before Jesus walked the earth in Jerusalem. Since the time of Solomon, Buddha, Sankara, all this came thundering into my memory and suddenly I wanted to give everything I had to the widows, to help them.
I brought out my clutch of money and emptied it out giving it to Ram. He gave some to the women and put the rest in his pocket.
“I have been here all my life”, said Ram. “I am untouchable. I work here. This is my life. My Father was here and his Father as well. I have always been here. I am a Dom.”
All of a sudden, the pieces of a strange, wonderful puzzle came together and I realized that I was talking to one of the head men of the Doms, the lowly caste of those who take care of the corpses, who do the burning, who manage the pyres, night and day of the most famous and ancient smashan (cremation ground) in the world. The smashan of Manikarnika.
How grateful I felt for all the wonder that has been shown to me. How thankful I was for all the delight that is poured upon my head.
Now, I knew how Ram knew so much. Now, I saw how intimate he was with this place. I looked at his face; he was a small and slender man.
“Sometimes people call out to me as if I am a boy”, said Ram, “Then I turn around and they see my beard and they say ‘Sorry Uncle’. You", he said, referring to me, “are a big man and always get the respect of a man.”
“How did you learn such good English?”, I asked Ram.
“ I met an English woman here, a doctor and I taught her Hindi and she taught me English.” He had a good face. I liked him immensely.
The next afternoon we again went to see Ram. We had set up a time to meet and perhaps take some pictures at the burning ghat. Taking pictures at the ghat was prohibited, but, when I asked Ram if I could do so, he responded that he could set it up for me.
Antoine got there first, and I was a little late, as it was the festival of Divali and the traffic in Benaras was even more jam packed than usual, with carts, cycles, people, cows, buffalo and soldiers. There were many Indian army men in the streets with guns, presenting a formidable presence to any who sought to make trouble.
Here and there, everything just plain stopped. The roads came to a complete standstill. Even when I went down the narrow alleys to the Manikarnika ghat, all the people in the alleys were often stopped. I came upon a funeral procession, the dead body, held up above the crowd on a bamboo stretcher, brightly colored in his or her wrapping, feet leading the way, being carried down to Manikarnika to be burned. Everything was halted, and we waited, jam packed in the small alleyway, while there was an argument that continued to the sounds of ‘Sub ki yahe gate Hai, Ram Nama Satya Hai’. It was impossible to get by. There was no room for more than two people to pass side by side in the alleyways. After about ten minutes, the argument ceased and the alley began to move again.
When I was almost to the Ghat, a young man approached me who spoke good English and seemed well educated. He asked me where I was from and I told him, “From America.” He then asked if I was going to the Ghat to see the burning. I replied that I was going to see that and also to meet a man named Ram. The boy said he knew the man and he hoped I had not given him any money. He said that he is an alcoholic and runs a scam there, saying that he works at an old folks home and takes people up to the apartments there… He pointed to where Ram took me last night. Then he said that Ram takes the money himself.
Well, well, well, such is the fortune of a Fairangi in India. What a revelation. I did not have time to really ask him any further questions as we then saw Ram approach from below on the burning ghats and the young man begged me not to tell Ram he had told me any of this or that Ram would beat him. When Ram approached, the young man was effusive in his greeting and then left hurriedly, with a last glance towards me that I understood to say, ‘Please do not tell Ram’.
At first, I thought to myself, “How soon this dream has gone, how brief and wonderful. But wait, could this not be a deeper part of the dream, a further twist in the plot?” All of a sudden, a new feeling sprang to my heart, born of now also being an 'actor' in the workings of this exotic play. I warmly greeted Ram . . . with a twinkle in my eye, filled with a newfound appreciation and a shared mystery. I now felt that neither of us knew what was really going on, although I had just become more unknowing. I surrendered to ignorance. Now, I could take part in this ‘play’ with a new, more 'conscious' role, more conscious of what I did not know. We began to walk towards where the bodies were burning, deeper into the story.
Many centuries ago, the great poet and saint Kabir, who lived most of his life in Benaras, recited a poem about Ram. I believe he was talking about the idea and belief in Rama, one of the Avatars, an incarnation of God of the Indian tradition. I believe that Kabir was suggesting how Rama's maya or illusion has deluded the world. His poem somehow relates to my experience in an unique and exquisite way.
That con man Ram has conned the world.
With his conjuring, he snatches away your roots.
No one can see Rams trickery.
Kabir's heart accepts the thief.
When you recognize the cheat
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